We were informed at our last visit to DFCI that I was a subject of a scientific paper. That's the second time in two weeks!! All I had to do with it was to say yes and let them study me as I was given this treatment, this blood thinner, this chemotherapy, this method of controlling life-threatening reactions to said chemotherapy and for them to study what feel like gallons of blood they take from me every two weeks.
What they seem to find most fascinating about me is that I am still alive. An anomaly. This cancer has a history of taking a person out in the first six months.
How do you answer the question, "Why are you still alive?" The only thing I can come up with is Damned if I know.
Chemo number 24 is on Tuesday, 11 hours in the chair and another 46 carrying a pump around. I have found an old photography vest I last wore in Morocco eighteen years ago that fits the pump very nicely.
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